• tetris11@lemmy.ml
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    3 days ago

    Not finding anyone to replace my ex in my heart. Someone not finding her and giving her the life we dreamed about.

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                Feelings: I can’t shake away the thought that I’ve hurt her deeply. I mourn for the children we wanted to have. The house and the garden I promised. The stolen fertile years of her life. I hurt someone whose only crime was not quite being able to share the same headspace as me. I felt lonely in the relationship due to the language and the alien culture, but since I’ve been alone and moved back to my home country I’ve realised that I tend to just generally live in my head, regardless of language or company.

                I feel that my loneliness problem wasn’t coming from her somewhat difficulty in hearing me, but in my difficulty sharing aspects of myself with others. I feel that I’ve ruined my life, and that’s okay, completely self-inflicted… but I can’t live with the idea that I’ve ruined hers too. The thought and the guilt buries me every night.

                Closure: we’ve said goodbye a thousand times, and have talked about the above themes, but I can’t shake away the memories I have with her.

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                  Sounds like a many incomplete closures? So you keep talking with each other or where are you now?

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    2 days ago

    Climate change, and the generations after me who will have nothing left.

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    2 days ago
    • Economic collapse
    • Being too anxious to work
    • Fascism
    • Unexpected death
    • Singularity
    • Eugenia@lemmy.ml
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      2 days ago

      Me too. Just tonight I lost my cat, and found her hours later, with a tomcat on top… Doctor said she’s too young to be spayed, he was wrong…

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    3 days ago

    Climate change and all of the bullshit it will bring before it kills enough humans to start fixing the issue.

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    3 days ago

    Right now, climate change. This planet was a paradise and we ruined it for ourselves. I don’t think we have very long before ecosystems just start breaking down in massive ways.