Ready for the general strike followed by the mass executions of the oligarch class.

Usually takes a couple years for the general public to catch up to where I’m at so biding my time.

Nearing a psychotic amount of rage directed at the elites whose sole desire is to grind the rest of use beneath their feet.

Rip and tear, brothers.

The bad thoughts have been successfully buried for now

I feel fine. Sure, there’s lots of stuff to do, but it’s ok. Just one thing at a time…

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I had to put my cat down first thing this morning. I’ve come to terms with it but am distracting myself from the need to go home and clean up his things.

I’m full, have eaten soup and dumplings at my parents in law place and yesterday also so much tasty food.

I’m good. Trying to figure out which remote part of the world I’d like to visit, maybe stay there.

Burying myself in my work so I don’t burst into tears every other moment. Grieving the sudden loss of a cat that was my universe for her whole fuzzy diabolical life. It’s been a month, but I knew the second I plucked her from the bushes that she was going to destroy me. We had a good eleven years but fuck, man.
My gf and our surviving cat have been great consolation, but violet had no sense of personal space and I find this void in my orbit to be currently…unbearable.

Today was a bastard. Helped a bunch of people but now I’m mentally exhausted. Family has been great and I’ve got a cat sleeping on me. Couldn’t have ended better.

I’m tired has a busy few days I was horrifically ill at the end of last year which I’m recovering from

I’m tired and with a few deadlines that will hit me on monday. I need to finish my task or i wont get vacations… so… all the fuel is going to the wrong place.

I currently work as a postdoc in biomedical research, so my line of work was directly in the line of fire of recent Trump administration nonsense… Not great.

Beyond this though, I’m just impressed at how almost delusional my boss and some of my lab members has been. Lab PI/group leaders are responsible for bringing in grants, yet they don’t seem to even care about the fact that almost all grant reviews are paused (and some of their grants are due early Feb!)… Not to mention they seem almost happy about RFK and Bhattacharya; I do not approve of such behavior as a researcher… Especially since another student in the lab is fucking suffering from long COVID-induced chronic fatigue. I don’t understand how could some other ppl in the lab be so insensitive

To be fair, I’ve been essentially “fired” from the lab anyway. Not actually fired, but was on an 1-year contract and PI refused to renew (and it’s more difficult to fire someone than not renewing contract in Illinois law anyway). Pretty shitty behavior but I guess I should have expected a newer PI to not know how to properly lead a lab… Partly due to that, I’ve started applying for jobs in Europe two months ago and have just recently started getting interviews. All of them are scheduled early morning for me, I’m not a morning person, and at least one or two have been somewhat disrespectful so… At least I’m hoping to get at least one offer I hope?

Also am worried about selling some large possessions (furniture, hobbyist items) since I’m probably leaving the US soon. So a bit stressed recently between work and personal matters

All in all, I’m… surprisingly calm for the amount of bullshit I need to deal with. No ideal why. Maybe it’s just the power of video games lol

Past two weeks have been such a roller coaster that I don’t even know. Thankfully I have therapy in the morning so I hope I can get the help I need to get this sorted. Things seem to be happening back to back to back that it feels, at times, that I don’t get a chance to breathe.

Wondering how long it will take for the world to start world war 3 and which fascist regime were going to be fighting.