I just realized that I’ve made a horrible and irreversible mistake. I’ve booked my entire family to drive a full day (with a toddler) to stay in an Airbnb for a full week, centered around an event that is actually happening the week before we arrive.

I realize that my ADHD probably played some role in this, but having an explanation doesn’t really stop me from calling myself every hurtful and inappropriate synonym of the word “stupid”. It’s only full blast inside of my head and it’s inescapable.

I can feel the absolute, white-hot, nuclear rage boiling up inside of me. I am seething with self-hatred right now…this realization has just ruined my entire summer, and rendered months of difficult preparations and thousands of dollars of travel plans completely pointless.

If anyone has some kind words, I could really use them right now as I’m definitely supplying myself with a fair amount of hateful, abusive, and violent self-talk.

I literally cannot believe how stupid I feel and how broken my brain is. I am drowning in shame and embarrassment right now.

  • Pronell@lemmy.worldEnglish
    311·
    23 days ago

    It’s just a mistake, there’s no point in beating yourself up over it at all.

    Try to find a way to laugh it off and either cancel or have a fun time doing something else in the area.

    Your mistake is an embarrassing inconvenience. Nobody is hurt, nobody lost their job, you aren’t fired, evicted, or divorced.

    Take a deep breath. Self-forgiveness is a skill worth practicing, lest you poison your memories with regret.

    • CaptDust@sh.itjust.worksEnglish
      19·
      23 days ago

      Your mistake is an embarrassing inconvenience. Nobody is hurt, nobody lost their job, you aren’t fired, evicted, or divorced.

      1000x this, well said.