I just realized that I’ve made a horrible and irreversible mistake. I’ve booked my entire family to drive a full day (with a toddler) to stay in an Airbnb for a full week, centered around an event that is actually happening the week before we arrive.
I realize that my ADHD probably played some role in this, but having an explanation doesn’t really stop me from calling myself every hurtful and inappropriate synonym of the word “stupid”. It’s only full blast inside of my head and it’s inescapable.
I can feel the absolute, white-hot, nuclear rage boiling up inside of me. I am seething with self-hatred right now…this realization has just ruined my entire summer, and rendered months of difficult preparations and thousands of dollars of travel plans completely pointless.
If anyone has some kind words, I could really use them right now as I’m definitely supplying myself with a fair amount of hateful, abusive, and violent self-talk.
I literally cannot believe how stupid I feel and how broken my brain is. I am drowning in shame and embarrassment right now.
It might still be salvageable, if you can find lodgings and arrangments in the general area for the correct week (obviously with the event going on, you might not be able to find prime locations anymore) and then ask the airbnb you accidentally booked if you can get a refund, explaining what happened and how stupid you feel. It depends on if the airbnb is operated by the owner, or a business. If its the owner they might let you off the hook, understanding how much of a devastating fuck-up it is.