I just realized that I’ve made a horrible and irreversible mistake. I’ve booked my entire family to drive a full day (with a toddler) to stay in an Airbnb for a full week, centered around an event that is actually happening the week before we arrive.
I realize that my ADHD probably played some role in this, but having an explanation doesn’t really stop me from calling myself every hurtful and inappropriate synonym of the word “stupid”. It’s only full blast inside of my head and it’s inescapable.
I can feel the absolute, white-hot, nuclear rage boiling up inside of me. I am seething with self-hatred right now…this realization has just ruined my entire summer, and rendered months of difficult preparations and thousands of dollars of travel plans completely pointless.
If anyone has some kind words, I could really use them right now as I’m definitely supplying myself with a fair amount of hateful, abusive, and violent self-talk.
I literally cannot believe how stupid I feel and how broken my brain is. I am drowning in shame and embarrassment right now.
I have no idea what just happened to my last comment. I meant to say that I’ve had Air Bnb hosts surprise me before and make exceptions when I’ve needed to make last minute changes. Give it a shot, you may find they are more accommodating than you thought. Most importantly, be kind to yourself.
you might be surprised the air bnb host might be willing to switch the dates. I’ve had similar experiences where I’ve had to do the same. be kind to yourself. I have no idea if this will post but if it doesn’t or if it posts 10x just know I tried to reassure you because I know how shitty that feeling is but it truly happens to the best of us.