I just realized that I’ve made a horrible and irreversible mistake. I’ve booked my entire family to drive a full day (with a toddler) to stay in an Airbnb for a full week, centered around an event that is actually happening the week before we arrive.

I realize that my ADHD probably played some role in this, but having an explanation doesn’t really stop me from calling myself every hurtful and inappropriate synonym of the word “stupid”. It’s only full blast inside of my head and it’s inescapable.

I can feel the absolute, white-hot, nuclear rage boiling up inside of me. I am seething with self-hatred right now…this realization has just ruined my entire summer, and rendered months of difficult preparations and thousands of dollars of travel plans completely pointless.

If anyone has some kind words, I could really use them right now as I’m definitely supplying myself with a fair amount of hateful, abusive, and violent self-talk.

I literally cannot believe how stupid I feel and how broken my brain is. I am drowning in shame and embarrassment right now.

  • Strider@lemmy.world
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    4 hours ago

    Every day everywhere someone makes more or less grave mistakes. People with or without diagnose or issues.

    Your error did not kill anyone and while I can emphasize with the resulting fury and disappointment it will pass. Restart and go ahead. You did good, just made a mistake.