Ever since I connected my executive functioning issues to my ADHD, I’ve realized yet another hurdle has been added to my efforts to do shit: the idea that I am helplessly useless at doing things and that’s how things are. I literally end up paralyzed with fear at the idea I’ve internalized that I am simply bad at doing life, which makes me do bad at life.

I recently tried psyching myself up instead of out, and it’s been really effective. Focusing on things I’m good and skilled at WHILE ALSO focusing on the task at hand, not comparing myself to other people, and asking for help when I need it has improved my ability to get things done significantly. By significantly I mean I have gone from doing 2 things a day to 5 things a day, BUT THAT IS SOMETHING. An upward curve. I love and want the best for myself. I will continue to improve with every drop of effort I can muster. And I’m good at this shit. I’m determined. I am literally wrenching my brain back from the depths of the void. I’m going to sleep in the next 30 minutes (NOT the next 3 hours) and the moment I wake up I’m going to get up and I’m going to do my fucking best and anyone who takes issue with that (the evil brain gremlins and imaginary people i make up to call myself stupid) can have a boot up their ass

To you who reads this, I wish you the most fortune I possibly can. I love myself and I love you all, even though I have no idea who you are. You deserve happiness and mercy and rest. Goodnight.

  • chickenf622@sh.itjust.worksEnglish
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    3 days ago

    I like to deal in absolutes when it comes to not psyching myself out from doing things. It very much is a mind game and also could be me coping with my social anxiety. If you’re able to medicate your ADHD take some time while you’re on your meds to make definitive plans (where you’re going and what time). It has helped me tremendously.

    Just today I said I was going to go to a few select places with a definitive start and end point. I did have to remove some places cause I ended up having conversations with people that kept me somewhere longer than expected, but that's a good reason to not follow through on my general plans.