I tried Atomoxetine and didn’t like it, I don’t recall any major mental benefits (maybe my motivation was non existent) but I did recall MAJOR sex related side effects that absolutely sucked.

I forget what it’s called but there is one medication that doesn’t act as a stimulant and is closer to that of an antidepressant

I’ve just finished organizing all of my PC games into a whole ass alphabetical list with checkboxes, highlights, a damn KEY, even includes large mods and DLC

The hope is I can use it to track games I’m playing instead of bouncing around from title to title unnecessarily or being paralyzed and picking nothing.

Currently playing Yakuza 0, and got two other games I’m playing when I’m bored or taking a short break from the big game

As an American I didn’t even think of the automatic transmission. That makes a lot of sense too.

Modal transport design is probably a huge reason why this works. I would be interested to see the pedestrian deaths in a packed busy city like NYC vs the wide suburban roads of the rest of America.

My theory is that roads designed with the purpose of driving faster (designed with a higher modal level) are commonly placed within high pedestrian areas within the US (Stroads) and due to that higher modal mental state people are “comfortable” and thus use their phones as their brains are less occupied. While in a busy city street they’re in that 1st modal mental state so they are focused on their surroundings way more.

We call them crab spiders in Florida

“Roll for dexterity” when you enter a city that’s not wheelchair accessible at every single stairway 💀

Okay, let’s see “God” come on down and do that. Until then I’m gonna continue being “depraved” fucking nut jobs.

We really don’t need more podcasts

At home I won’t wear a pair of pants for more than a day (unless I was only out for like, 3 hours)

But traveling? 1 pair of pants per week, and underwear is generally 0.5 pairs a day, as in I’ll wear it for like, 2 days if I can. But if I’ve been super active I will not be doing that.

I actually really really enjoyed Loki, easily the strongest thing marvel has released recently.

Soon the schizophrenics will become neuro-typical

The moment Google stops stealing my data I might consider using YouTube premium

Unironically I’ve used chatgpt to get me out of a creative rut. Giving myself a sentence or two or just asking it questions related to what I’m writing allows me to extrapolate whatever I need to in order to get a good essay finished.

$300/p could more or less cover a good chunk of the US population though. It’d be a good start and in theory take some of the stress off of the insurer. Far from ideal but it could’ve been a good step.

You’d think $300 would cover the Dentist, Eye Doctor, and Annual checkups and some cheaper prescriptions. But I will admit idk if the pricing we see is much different from other pricing.

Yeah my hyperfocus is just “focus on all the bad things and get nothing done. Enjoy the panic attack”

That ain’t no super power to me. Maybe once a month I get the actual beneficial form of it and it’s generally wasted on something like a video game or other menial task.

Druid: I took a nap and know everything now.

It also sucks if all the content is exclusively paywalled. I wouldn’t know what is or isn’t good without potentially wasting my hard earned money. I can’t even afford rent let alone a series of patreon services. I support creators when I can, but I refuse to be a fucking product for simply being poor.

That’s probably sleep apnea, not good, I’d go to a doctor about it

I’m aphantasic for sure, I think I’m even entirely mind-blind so to speak, I can’t imagine smells, tastes, sounds, images, or textures.

I can still dream and I can even recall the details vividly the morning of, but I suspect myself of being on the autism spectrum as I’ve always been super obsessed with finer details. Besides those recollections aren’t in a mental image, it’s more so concepts.

When I think of an apple I know the physiology of an apple and thus I can discern the details onto paper (albeit crudely as I’m not artist) but I’ve always suffered with geometry since rotating a shape in my head is impossible, algebraic translations, flips, etc across the x or y axis are also super difficult for me to grasp. But I can deal with arithmetic easier.

In terms of getting better at it? I’m not really in an environment or situation where I could safely test out hallucinogens, but with my ADHD on top of suspected autism, I really don’t think I want to see images in my head. In 2019 I had my deepest dive into depression, and while I was having a 2am panic attack (the peak of my depression I’d say) where I had endless racing thoughts just coming at me from all directions. The “noise” of my own thoughts overpowered everything. If I could imagine sound (and by extension, voices) beyond my own I might have actually gone farther than a 2 second peak of “I want to die”.