I haven’t had that. I also mask because I want other people to not be stressed out or lose energy because I can be a bit much.

Knowing where some things in my head and some issues come from has mostly helped me to accept that some things sometimes I cannot change. So I don’t beat myself up about them.

But I’ll still keep trying to do my best to remember things and not be a dick for neuro normies. That little bit of masking isnt all that hard anyways.

I don’t understand the question. What randomness?

I have a regular watch on my wrist. That way I don’t get sucked into my phone from trying to check what time it is.

When I check the time it is likely I have something to do at a specific time. Which means losing several minutes on social media or whatever might be a bad idea.

Also disable all push notifications. I’ve taken so much control over my life back.

D100. I’m going d4 on that table.

Oh no.

Anyways.

Wow. Thank you for sharing. What a thoughtful response!

If I ever feel the urge to write down all my hobbies and projects and rabbit hole topics I will. But currently that sounds like an absolute chore.

I replaced gaming with painting and building miniatures for TTRPGs. TTRPGs are my other life long hobby. I hope it stays. It’s nice because I get to share the results to people without it being about me. They are just game pieces and people like them.

Gaming just stopped feeling rewarding one day. It felt pointless.

And yes. Once I know all the steps I have to take to the end I often lose interest. Figuring out the way often is most of the fun. Actually walking the way isn’t always why I got interested. I think. It’s really hard to grasp.

Sometimes I really hate the lack of control over my life.

But then it leads me to so many interesting places regularly. I just hope it never picks up something too destructive.

I can relate so much. My whole life has been dominated by hyper fixations.

I can’t control them almost at all. Fighting them makes me depressed. If something remotely positive comes up I’ll jump in. It’s better than some of the more problematic ones.

Some last a few weeks, some lasted as long as 2 to 3 years. And everything in between. I have one hobby that lasted almost my whole life since childhood but a few years ago was replaced. Video games. Just don’t interested anymore in my mid 30s from one day to the next. Been gaming since I’m 8. Some fixations come and leave.

What helped me.

• I stopped giving myself shit for quitting. Without the guilt I also found it easier to return to something.
• endulge the positive and social ones. Like my chess one was fun, to play at local trounaments and such.
• I got better but not by much at not overspending on every fixation. It’s still a bit much but the trend is positive.
• I realized I have a ridiculous amount of superficial knowledge and okay skills at various topics and activities. People initially believe in bulshitting but I can back it up so that kinda cool.
• I try to enjoy the time in between rabbit holes now. It’s tough, I used to feel aimless and sad and out of balance. But these days I try to embrace the calm before the storm.

Time between fixations is usually only a week or so max. All other time of my life is spend in hyper fixated mode. It is a bit tiring and it does control my life quite a bit. Makes life harder.

I don’t know how to close the chapter. Usually interest in the topic just is gone from 100 to 0 over night without warning.

Xbox and Playstation controllers work out of the box for me usually on steam and Heroic. Sometimes games try really hard to not recognize it but can usually made work.