I have taken long breaks in my education (a pretty good one) due to being lazy depressed (being depressed but not sad per se, having executive dysfunction).
My friends have moved on from college and I am stuck. It always feels that my problems were not as important or as big to waste years of my life.
I have accepted the fact that it is my life and it is not a race but sometimes I do feel that it would have been much simpler and better if I had just completed my education while being miserable because I was miserable anyways.
I am kind of rambling because I don’t think such a deep and vast topic can be explained in a comment.
I spent 7 years on my 4 year degree for vaguely similar reasons. I didn’t take breaks. I pushed through and cracked and failed and started over in a new major and a new school. That was nearly a decade ago and I’m not really happy with where it lead me. I wish I had taken the time off. If I could go back now with my current knowledge of how my brain works differently, I would be so much more successful. I’m also just rambling at this point.
I guess what I’m trying to say is be kind to yourself over the choices to have made. Not only can you rarely ever take them back, the grass is rarely ever actually greener on the other side.
Letting my emotions ruin my career
I’m curious if you want to tell the story.
I have taken long breaks in my education (a pretty good one) due to being lazy depressed (being depressed but not sad per se, having executive dysfunction).
My friends have moved on from college and I am stuck. It always feels that my problems were not as important or as big to waste years of my life.
I have accepted the fact that it is my life and it is not a race but sometimes I do feel that it would have been much simpler and better if I had just completed my education while being miserable because I was miserable anyways.
I am kind of rambling because I don’t think such a deep and vast topic can be explained in a comment.
I spent 7 years on my 4 year degree for vaguely similar reasons. I didn’t take breaks. I pushed through and cracked and failed and started over in a new major and a new school. That was nearly a decade ago and I’m not really happy with where it lead me. I wish I had taken the time off. If I could go back now with my current knowledge of how my brain works differently, I would be so much more successful. I’m also just rambling at this point.
I guess what I’m trying to say is be kind to yourself over the choices to have made. Not only can you rarely ever take them back, the grass is rarely ever actually greener on the other side.
You’re right, but thank you for sharing anyway!