Anyone new that comes into my life, even if they become my “friends” or hell, even a girlfriend, I couldn’t care less about them and don’t value them. If they have kids, I don’t care about their well-being either. Basically I could not give less of a fuck about anyone. I don’t care about my friends or family members at all. If they are sick, I don’t care; if they die, I don’t care. It’s not even that I don’t “like” them; it’s more apathy than anything else. Don’t care whether they live or die. They don’t care about their children or their well-being. Here are my “emotions” towards people. I either tolerate you, or I’m purely apathetic. Or I just straight up don’t like you.
But I’m going to be in more social situations around people I hang out with – friends, family, etc. – and I need to fake like I care about them.
How do I do that?
I don’t actually think that you need to fake like you care about people. That is disingenuous. You can set time limits on how long you are willing to socialize. Let people know that you can come to their event but you need to leave by a certain time and stick to it. Leave when you promised yourself that you would, be that kind of friend to you. It’s okay to be a “mysterious” person and limit your social life. If you want to come off as a nice person you just need to be that person. That doesn’t mean that you should be a social person just be the person that you want to be for the allotted time. You tell yourself that you are only going to go for an hour and you really only need to be “that person” for an hour, you can do this. It takes a lot of practice, actually it’s all practice, but as you settle into who you really are it just becomes who you are.