I’m probably just an asshole nobody wants to talk to, but I can hardly even get a reply text from anyone anymore. A couple people have told me that they are just feeling burnt out/depressed/etc and don’t have even enough energy to answer a message anymore. But I’ve also had some long time friends just entirely ghost me in the last year as well with no explanation. It feels like I’m surrounded by NPCs. I’ve basically just stopped reaching out to anyone at this point. Outside of my work, literally the only people I talk to are my parents, sister, and my girlfriend. Everyone else seems dead inside. I used to have at least 10 people who I could call on a moments notice and all of those people are gone.
yes, both of my closest friends have pulled away. one far less, one far more. we’re all good friends as well so we talk about each other since we care about each other. our mutual friend hasn’t spoken to us in months. i have sent them several texts letting them know whenever they want to talk to reach out. i tell them every so often i care about them and love them and am thinking of them, but nothing. we’ve known each other for 20 years… since teens. it sucks. i know what’s going on and i don’t.
the friend i still talk to has pulled back in other ways. we talk frequently but it isn’t about deep stuff anymore other than politics since we are compatible leftists. but i don’t talk about her life and when i try to ask it gets deflected or dismissed. not rudely, mind you, she just doesn’t go into detail.
i understand… but i’m still a bit hurt. i miss friendship; the ones i had before. i hope we all come back to each other.
in the meantime, i have also met new friends. i always enjoy meeting people.