Talked to my wife a few days ago about this and made her sad with it but she could understand why i feel this way, i said i don’t want to live a long life, 50 is enough (about to be 38 btw) and if i manage to live to be 60 i’m going for assisted suicide, like why the fuck would i want to live long enough just to become someone’s burden and there’s really no point in “looking forward to retirement” because a) i’ll be too old to enjoy anything, if i am properly mobile by that point considering my job does involve heavy lifting and b) while i am earning “decent” money for the fact that my education has no relation to my current job, this money does absolutely fuck all for retirement and will get me about 1000-1500€ per month and that’s if the threshold doesn’t go any higher, investments are mainly risks that mostly don’t pan out and the time when there were investment opportunities i didn’t have money to do anything, so i’m just choosing death.