I don’t mean like how happy you are today. I mean overall, are you satisfied with everything you are up until this point? For me, for an example, I have a decent job that keeps my head just above water. I have a loving family that I see every couple months or weeks. I have the freedom to do what I want, when I want. But, overall, I’m sort of lonely and exhausted from constantly working. So, on a scale of 1 to 10, I’m about a 6.
Don’t know if it helps, but having had cancer, it’s not the worst thing out there.
I’d rank years of dialysis higher, for example.
Death of a loved one too, easily.
With the cancer, you either know you’ll die fast and even get an estimate. But other stuff just slowly kills you and robs you of years of opportunity you can never get back, and you don’t know if you might die next month, next week, or next year.
Getting a chance to know you’re dying is a luxury, by few realize it. Heck even the foresight of it the possibility is. But the long term stuff? The slow, unsure deaths? That’s… Well, like I said, I don’t know if it helps, but I’ll say it could be much, much, much worse. Consider you’ll have time to prepare at least. It’s not much, it’s still a shit situation. Don’t know if you had the chemo yet and yeah, that’s pretty shit. But maybe realizing you have preparation time and a pretty black and white outcome can raise that 0 to a 1 or 2.
Chemo depends on the results of the surgery. Right now, it’s stage 2 which is resolved with surgery. If it gets into the lymph nodes, that bumps it to stage 3 and requires chemo.
So they pull the entire sigmoid colon and the related lymph nodes and send it all off for biopsy.