I have this scene in my head that goes something like this:
Mom: “Good night, my lovely son”
30 minutes later
Mom quietly enters my room
Pets me on my head for a good few seconds
Suddenly pulls out a knife and stabs me
I struggle to say with my last breath: “Mooommmm… why? 🥺”
Does anyone else have a brain that just think weird shit like this?
I don’t know if it’s normal, but intrusive thoughts like that happen to, I’d imagine, a lot of people.
The other commenter that said you can train yourself to sort of step back from them isn’t wrong. That’s a big sort of “mindfulness” thing. Maybe that can help you and I would advise looking up some info on it.
Personally, I bounce off of the whole of mindfulness, it just doesn’t work for me. What’s helped me is to structure some sort of way to move away from that thought. In my head, I have the vague script of the garbage thoughts written on a huge mental chalkboard - like the ones in college lecture halls - and I will imagine a big eraser just cleaning the whole thing. Like a sort of power washing simulator thing. Haha.
But I would say maybe check yourself for habit revolving around these thoughts. Like are you checking your door is locked for sure or putting your blankets in just the right way? It might be more of an OCD behavior in that case, and I would definitely suggest talking to a professional.