I called it quits with my boyfriend today on a video call. It had been brewing for a while, and the breakup was very amicable. Instead of feeling angry or sad, I actually feel fresh and excited. I think it’s because we got into the relationship very quickly, and I never really got the chance to explore or “play the field.”
I’m 37m now. I was with my first gf from age 18 to 24. I was a wreck for years. I didn’t go on a date for at least a year. I didn’t have sex for 2 years. I didn’t get into another relationship for 5 years.
We had kinda been circling the drain for a while, so it shouldn’t have been a surprise at the time, but I didn’t know any world without her and I was scared to end it.
Looking back, it was one of the best things that ever happened to me, but in the moment it was awful. I was a depressed wreck for years.