Agreed. At least one of them has been in for assessment, not sure about the other but the signs are there.

And I should probably clarify. There’s other (undiagnosed) mental illness that runs in my family, and one side in particular is rife with substance abuse. Whether the root of those issues can be traced to “benign” forms of neurodivergence is moot outside of genetics: the learned behavioral patterns of abuse and violence were pretty deeply ingrained. I only got to see some of it growing up, but it was enough. I wanted nothing to do with any of it. My brother fell into the drug trap in early adulthood. My sister was the youngest, and was thankfully shielded from the worst of the family bullshit. She still did the same thing my mom did though: had kids way too young with a meathead, and not enough money.

I am trying to be a role model for my nephew in particular, but as my shit isn’t exactly together it’s an uphill battle. There’s a whole world of toxic influencers out there taking in the bucks by telling him who and what to blame his problems on, all available at the tap of a screen. And then there’s… gestures vaguely at the world at large …yeah.

Much eloquent, so props.

You know what would be a hoot? If Biden went on air and just read this aloud, word for word. Watch all the fascist-friendly corpo “news” wanks go apoplectic because outrage is more important than fact checking.

It ain’t much but it’s honest work.

"Get out as early as you can,

And don’t have any kids yourself. "

I did not get out early, but my eventual spouse and I were on the same page: the crazy stops with me.

My sister had different plans and now has two neurodivergent kids. ᕕ(ᐛ)ᕗ

Growing up neurodivergent in the 80s and not being disruptive enough to demand said deeper look may lead to:

• Depression
• Anxiety
• Internalization of negative self-worth
• Avoidance of formal higher education
• Early burnout
• Lifelong vague dissatisfaction
• Disillusionment with the world and its systems
• Being terminally online searching frantically for the next dopamine hit

“Helps.”

Cobra Triangle fuck yeah! I can’t wait to play it and relive the experiences of my youth by being very excited for a half hour because boat stuff and then completely losing interest because of the difficulty.

Edit: Only managed maybe 15 minutes. Womp womp.

For those that would like the story told with a little stylized flair:

https://youtu.be/GFy9p1KB8SA

https://nebula.tv/videos/extrahistory-civil-war-train-heist-the-first-medals-of-honor-us-history/

There’s that pesky cost of doing business again.

More of a misdiagnosis.

It’s 2am and all I have are the extended edition DVDs.

This, this, 1000% this. And if I do somehow manage to start, I can NOT stop. None of this “do x for y minutes, take z minute break, then go back to doing x.” If I stop, I don’t know when I’ll be able to start again. Which then feeds back into the “overwhelming” loop.

My brain is not kind to me.

Better cut funding since they’re not doing their job.

Thanks, I appreciate it.

And each of those small tasks is a boulder that needs to go up and over the mountain. And there’s no satisfaction for handling boulder #1, because boulder #2 has been looming the whole time. And so on. And when all of the boulders have finally been moved, the next mountain is right there. It’s different than the first mountain, and all of the boulders are different. Each boulder and mountain takes more and more energy. There’s no end. No reward for finishing. Just boulders all the way down. Or up, in this case.

I’m tired, man.