I don’t mean like how happy you are today. I mean overall, are you satisfied with everything you are up until this point? For me, for an example, I have a decent job that keeps my head just above water. I have a loving family that I see every couple months or weeks. I have the freedom to do what I want, when I want. But, overall, I’m sort of lonely and exhausted from constantly working. So, on a scale of 1 to 10, I’m about a 6.
0/10 - Cancer surgery in 11 days.
Don’t know if it helps, but having had cancer, it’s not the worst thing out there.
I’d rank years of dialysis higher, for example.
Death of a loved one too, easily.
With the cancer, you either know you’ll die fast and even get an estimate. But other stuff just slowly kills you and robs you of years of opportunity you can never get back, and you don’t know if you might die next month, next week, or next year.
Getting a chance to know you’re dying is a luxury, by few realize it. Heck even the foresight of it the possibility is. But the long term stuff? The slow, unsure deaths? That’s… Well, like I said, I don’t know if it helps, but I’ll say it could be much, much, much worse. Consider you’ll have time to prepare at least. It’s not much, it’s still a shit situation. Don’t know if you had the chemo yet and yeah, that’s pretty shit. But maybe realizing you have preparation time and a pretty black and white outcome can raise that 0 to a 1 or 2.
Chemo depends on the results of the surgery. Right now, it’s stage 2 which is resolved with surgery. If it gets into the lymph nodes, that bumps it to stage 3 and requires chemo.
So they pull the entire sigmoid colon and the related lymph nodes and send it all off for biopsy.
I see the clippy
O7 hope all goes well because we can’t afford to lose soldiers
Hopefully it all goes well! How would you rate it if it’s a successful procedure and you recover completely ?
Hard to say, recovery is going to be a bitch because, get this… 12 days after my diagnosis, 1 day before the CT Scan and 2 days before meeting the surgeon, my wife felt a numbness and tingling in her legs, tried to stand up and fell to the floor.
An infection she had been fighting in her foot moved to her spine and tried to paralyze her(!) She had emergency surgery on her spjne that night, a lower leg amputation a few days later, and has now been in the hospital… (checks math) 14 days.
So there’s a real possibility we’ll both be hospitalized at the same time or, best case, in surgical recovery at the same time. She can’t come home until she completes rehab for the nerve damage and amputation.
Oh man, what can I even say. What a difficult situation to be in, I feel for you both. Hopefully your wife and you recover well and quickly. Damn. 😔🙏