Just a story. I’m always a little sad or nostalgic when I think about this.

I used to hang out at newschoolers.com. It was a North American skiing community. Every night it was busy, and Fridays/weekends especially busy. Discord type of busy, not reddit/lemmy. You could buy/sell equipment reliably. Teton Gravity Research was the unofficial sister site for old people and newschoolers was for park rats. It was thick in culture. People left because of Facebook, ads were introduced to finance servers, new unwanted and badly implemented features were added to attract/retain, the original user base graduated high school, got jobs, and stopped visiting. It was sad. Everyone could feel it dying but there’s nothing you could do, communities are organic and they evolve and go extinct. I remember when an unpopular but industry connected member (eheath - he’s still there! wow. I’m sure he’s a good guy.) was made into a mod people were upset, and he proceeded to be a douche. Lots of things started to go bad, and eventually you just leave because it’s not fun anymore. It was years before I started going to reddit, and I always hated it. Lemmy is better. There is a bit of a forum vibe, though I still have a lot of trouble recognizing names.

https://www.newschoolers.com/forum/2/Non-Ski-Gabber

• A feature that was always there and was great was the member list on the side - you could log in and see if your friends were online. Lemmy should think about doing that. We can see the mods, which is a reddit feature, but I’d rather see online members. You get to recognize people that way.

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Wow how do you normally deal with that?

I’ve been back on lemmy for a month after a long break and it feels permanent this time. I like that I can generally replace /r/<sub> with lemmy.world/c/<sub>, that helps.

My boss doesn’t do meetings. Every once in a while he approves my vacation request and I get notified it’s approved. Sounds better than it is, but it is better than pointless daily meetings. Adult daycare crap.

This is lemmy so they’re probably angry Germany isn’t bombing Israel like Iran

I’m learning that even when I’m relatively miserable a good plate of food will make me feel as good as drugs, alcohol or sex. Sam is a smart boy.

kagi

I’ve been trying the trial/100 searches a month. Using very sparingly, but I like how it pulls up actual sites instead of ads disguised as websites. Idk if I’d pay $5 or $10USD to use it though. Bit steep.

Millionshort is another one, haven’t used them in a while. The results were meh but nice that you can filter out major websites.

kagi

What’s loom?

Lol did you really?

I used to leave aspirin on the canker, that burned it away.

make more foam when you brush

I always buy a specific brand toothpaste (turns out it is SLS free) but broke from my routine and bought crest or colgate or something. I use a small amount but I have to empty my mouth of foam midway through brushing. I hate it. Gross.

I also have a canker sore but have been brushing my teeth more often (with the crest) thinking it would help. I guess not.

I have another toothpaste (clinipro) which is not foamy enough, I always feel like I’m running out of toothpaste as I’m brushing.

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Ghengis Khan is estimated to have been responsible for killing 10% of the world population, which would be more than the entire population of Europe today.

The population of europe today is more than 750 million so that can’t be right.

There are a lot of reasons why Apple would back out. I wish we had more info.

Dennis Villeneuve is currently untouchable in the same way that Christoper Nolan was a few years ago. For whatever reason I meshed with Nolan’s work at the time but I have been completely disenchanted by Villeneuve since Blade Runner.

SCI

I looked this up because it’s new to me. AGI is what you think it is, and superintelligent collective intelligence is a collection that can perform tasks. Instead of 1 LLM or 1 AGI doing all the work, you have a team of agents and humans who can talk to each other. AGI seems like far off space tech and SCI is more like a next gen pursuit.

Attractive people get more opportunities in life, it’s baked into our brains. I prefer looking at attractive people. Music is something we hear, but with digital and social media it’s as much seen as it is heard. More artists are coming up through tik tok now than the radio. This relationship shows that being attractive will improve a persons odds of being successful in music. Maybe if personality can shine through in those videos it can overtake appearance.

That’s the conversation I was having with my therapist this week. I don’t know. I’ve always massively struggled with this. Thinking about it sends me into a spiral.

As of now the plan is to look for other opportunities in industry. Some training is fine but I would like to avoid loans. I don’t have anything specific yet, but public sector is likely part of it. I’m less motivated to help people as I am to make certain people miserable. Countries have started to track job quality (“job quality”), it’s data worth looking at.

Depending on how that goes I have other thoughts but nothing that is sucking me in. Maybe I’ll give up entirely and become a vagrant. I also have a viable non-expiring business idea that would de-employ a certain group of people I don’t like. I’m not ready for either of those yet.

In the meantime I have a bucket list of things that I’m working through. It helps me feel like my life has forward momentum despite what’s happening with my career (it’s also opening up new doors I didn’t see before, eg acting). Between that and therapy my job feels often feels like something I’ll deal with later.

It just makes me realize how much I hate what I do for a living.