For me, it would be that I smoke weed
Probably that I’m alive?
I already dealt with (undiagnosed) chronic depression by 10. The first time I thought about killing myself I don’t think I even knew the word “suicide.” I also had an overwhelming sense that I wouldn’t live past 30. That might not have started until I was 11 or 12, but I think it was there when I was younger.
Weirdly my mom also had an overwhelming sense that she would lose me at a young age from the day I was born, which she didn’t have with my older sister.
Well, I’m past 30 now. My love of people in my life has kept the suicidal ideation to only that. While I still have chronic depression, I’ve learned to manage it better over the years and medication helps.
I genuinely don’t know why I was depressed or had suicidal thoughts that young. I didn’t have a traumatic home or childhood. My parents worked a lot but loved me and my sister without question. We didn’t have a lot of money but always had enough food. I loved school and had great teachers. I wasn’t sexually assaulted before I was 10 (I think I was 12 the first time). I don’t know and that bothers me.
ETA: I guess I was bullied at school by 10, so maybe that accounts for it?
The entire world of personal electronics and the cloud.
I got in early and my entire life is digital. I used the first mass market personal computers and was on several precursors to the internet before most lemmings were born. I’m a software engineer: I play video games and do home automation for fun. I don’t have much of a lab but only for lack of time. Seriously, my entire life.
When I was 10, I was still a couple years away from joining my first computer club (IBM mainframe), learning my first computer language (APL - I’m a math nerd too). There were no mass market personal computer yet, and even the first kits probably weren’t out yet.
When I was 10, my life was skating through school, playing out in the yard with my brothers, or in the woods. I loved building and fixing, whether with my father’s tools, or model kits, or Lego. i loved camping, sports, visiting my grandparents farm. My interest in technology was mostly reading history. I would not even recognize most of my adult life
That it all worked out, somehow.
10 yrs old you Hi-Five!
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“Still a fat loser I see. And a weed smoker? But, our D.A.R.E lion? 🥺”
I can’t imagine 10 year old me
That’s I’ve been working 2 jobs for twenty years and am still married to this asshole who I am grey rocking so I can get through my 12 hour workdays.
i live in a different country and most of the day i speak a different language
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That I’d rather go outside than play video games all day.
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That I no longer care about becoming a software developer and work in a huge corporation (fuck 'em)
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That I still have no girlfriend.
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That I’m a girl now. Would have blown their mind that it was even possible. But then would have been disappointed in me for not having made a video game yet.
As someone who recently came out, I was kinda hoping that this would be here. It is a pretty wild thought
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Estradiol is fucking magical.
Estrogen in general I would say.
I was about to comment the same thing lol. Even the video game part.
Honestly though, I feel like there’s a chance I wouldn’t have been surprised cause I feel like I subconsciously knew back then but just didn’t understand it or know the words to describe it.
I always felt a kinship with girls while growing up and often thought of it as the idea that men and women really weren’t as different as people kept saying they were.
No kid, you’re trans. You weren’t a shining example of how a boy can get along with girls. You were just a girl among other girls.
But then would have been disappointed in me for not having made a video game yet.
That’s me NOW, too! Maybe if enough of us get together we can cobble something together to appease our childhood selves
But with how abusive the game industry is, makes me never want to get a job at a company that makes games. But that also means I have a full time job doing something else, and the idea of doing my job and coming home to work on my passion project game also sounds nightmarish.
Same as you. I also fully expected to be overweight. Sort of still do expect that at some point.
That for all intents and purposes, I beat depression. And here’s me knocking on wood to not jinx that.
I mean thats like what. fourth or fifth grade. I can’t even relate to who that was. flashes of memory at best. got a little more coherent ones from junior high but even high school and college are a blur.
Maybe that I went into a blue collar profession, but that I make such obscene money doing it.
My job…
10 year old me would be amazed
21 year old me would call me a sell out
30 year old me would nod approvingly
Current age me is getting too old for this shit
Current age me is getting too old for this shit
Ah fuck, you’re partnered with Riggs, aren’t you?
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